So I am NOT giving up!
Recently I have been going through some serious depressing stages. Although I've been hired by my church on a commission to do the nursery and my parents have been super supportive of me... Honestly? I've lost a lot of faith in myself. The endless cycle of Babysitting->Cook->School work->Bed->Babysitting Is really something that makes me lose touch with my art and my dreams. Even more so the lack of support on others has really just... well. It leaves me a little scared of my future. Just reading a story of some graphic designers who thought they could get far and didn't really breaks your heart and makes you want to crawl back into the corner and never come out.
Well. Trust me. I'm wanting to do that very badly still... But events that took place yesterday scared me into never saying that I'll give up again.
For those who don't know- I have turned my life over to Christ, and so any religious comments and or beliefs in this I do verily happy say bear with.
While working on my project in the nursery, I spilled my heart out to my sister saying that this was my last work. That after this I was quitting art and going to return my focus into the military. My sister was shocked and after arguing with me for an hour left me to myself. I was set on going- set on my plans.
Then a woman walks into the nursery. I had never seen her before, so low and behold when she suddenly whipped out a business card and started talking to me about my artwork: i was pretty freaked out! I politely answered her questions and finally she told me she wanted to offer me a 12 month job with a children's ministry team making props and tee shirts: Videos etc: I burst into tears. Immediately after I was so sure that this wasn't for me and that I couldn't get anywhere in art... I'm offered a job. It was like God looking down at me, pointing an accusing finger that shouted "I'M NOT DONE WITH YOU YET SERENA FAITH THANE."
So you know what? I'm not done yet. I'm going to continue with my goals. Even if none of my watches pay attention to me: I pray that you look down at your news feed and stop to read this. Stop to take time and pay attention to this miracle. Make this a sign for those who have given up on their dreams to keep going... because you just might not know what could happen if you do!
Listening to: Defying Gravity
Watching: The Last Ship
Playing: Halo 4
Eating: Taco Bell